Life is not a dream sweetheart...but it is one amazing journey to walk through with God

Been awhile since I have been on here to write...so much going on in life today...I had suffered a minor stroke and that set me back a bit but I have and will over come it one day at a time through Christ. Seems the stronger my faith in God the stronger Satan tries to come at me full force. In my old days I would have retreated to the bottle of Vodka and sat there while the world crumbled around me...I am so proud of myself for how far I have come in my walk with Christ. It has not been a bed of roses nor does God promise a bed of roses walk. There will be trials and tribulations to go through. It is what happens in that trial that determines the outcome so to speak. I hung on to faith through everything that Satan through at me...I clung to God like glue...followed his will/listened to him kept my eyes on the cross and all that struggling God is paying me off not only with wisdom/knowledge from him but I am starting to reap further benefits.

I have been blessed to find a church in Chicago, I have been blessed with my ex husband finally turning in the papers that will allow me to get what is half rightfully mine from the divorce after 11 years of waiting and the latter of that I let go and let God have it all and he delivered to me big time....myself and little man are moving to Chicago this summer to start our lives over with a very well grounded group of people that is so walking with God. God led me to them and am making actual friendships with people there. He will be delivering myself and little man out of this pit that is sick with Satan. My oldest is going to stay put here and finish out college then head to Tx to finish up her studies. My 16 year old son is headed to Tx to live with his dad...another let go and let God handle situation. It will be just myself and little man in a few months.

I am so looking forward to this new chapter in our lives. I have walked a long, hard, rough, lonely path and now because of my faithfulness I am being rewarded 2 fold for what I have sowed...I have slipped a few times but I got right back up to walk with God again. He forgave me every time I fell and I learned from that fall. Will life be a bed of roses yet, no. I will still have a road of roughness and struggle sometimes...but it will be a whole lot easier to walk because God is with me. And this next chapter is going to be filled with a lot more happiness and wonders bestowed on me from above. He is so moving in our lives that my head is spinning with all the blessings he has allowed me to have and continue to have. This move to Chicago brings about so many new things for little man and myself...gonna be wonderful to experience.

In Chicago once I get settled I will get back to work on what God has in store for me one being the book..I want to finish it up by fall to get it out to the public and schedule some speaker sessions to tell my story to those under the veil of darkness Satan has over them. That is all I have been shown in regard to the path God has me on. He has shown me other things and people that are going to be so intricate in mine and little mans life...going to be one amazing journey with more to learn and grow from.

Anyone going through Hell just keep going...you will come through...keep faith in God and he will guide you to his knowledge and wisdom...and those 2 things are the most precious of gifts he could bestow on his children. Life is so good. I have walked through Hell and even parked there for awhile in my life but I learned that I didn't have to stay there. I got out from alcoholism/depression among other things...I am not who I was nor am I who my biological father wanted me to be...I am who my Heavenly Father molded to be in his image. It can be done...I was severely sexually abused at the hands of my bio dad and several members of his side of the family from age 2 to 17...was it easy to get out of that statistic yes it was...but I did it.....I walk a path of happiness and love. I still have challenges but I know how to handle them. God put people in my life to learn how to do all sorts of things in all sorts of situations. I thank God for these people. And pray that my story can reach even one who is under the veil of darkness by Satan. Thank you and God bless.