The initial greeting :)

To start off, my name is Teresa. I am a single mom of 4 beautiful kids. Two boys and two girls. My oldest daughter, Danielle, has moved out and off to college and working full time...very proud of my baby girl. The next in line is, Ryan, and he is 15 years of age. He lives with me and I will talk about him from time to time as he has a long story as well that intertwines with my parenting him. Emotional problems stemmed from his childhood and his father today. The next in line is my 13 yr old Emily. She lives in TX with her dad. That's all I will say about that for now lol. And the last but not the least, Mathew. He is a 6 yr old angel that has had a rough start to life as well.

I will be sharing a bit of all of their journeys in regards to my being a single parent. The main focus of this blog will be my life story. My past childhood consists of this...from my memories from age 5 to 17 my father raped/molested/tortured/physically/emotionally/ mentally abused me. I found out at 17 from my mom that she caught dad molesting me at age 2...she called a psychiatrist anonymously and asked for help for dad...she was told that dad would go to prison and I would be taken away. She chose to hang up the phone and never stand up for me. So she knew about the abuse from age 2. My father had me in a kiddie porn ring of sorts...it was him and some of the men on his side of the family. My grandfather and some cousins as well as a couple of his friends. This happened from age 6 to 9/10. My memories are like that of a movie trailer...I remember the events but not the whole event of what happened to me. I guess it was to traumatic for me to fully remember...I may never know. My mind won't give up those memories and it may be that it is for the best. The memories I have now are enough trauma in itself. But I will share my full story on the next blog. This was just a preview of what this blog is going to consist of.

Today I lead a life of shear joy and happiness. My walk is by faith. I have been through the deepest pits of hell and was saved to share my journey with others like me. I call it "My Lighthouse of Hope". This means that God has shined his light on me as well as others and lead us to a path of healing. We can love with no abandon, smile till our mouths hurt and inside we are bursting with joy. We can live a normal life. We can laugh and its felt right down to our soul. We are directed to take this light that God has bestowed on us and shine his light on the "veil of darkness" that Satan has covered over victims. Together they come into the light and learn how to live again and if God leads them they become a part of that "Lighthouse" to shine his light. The light is strong and Satan is scared. So with all that said I pray that this blog grows and reaches out to many as a light.

I do have a support group over at Facebook called "The Lighthouse Project 2011". It is a support group with all walks of life with pasts that are similar. Some are followers of Christ, some are not...but share the same direction to heal and come to understand that living life can be done. God bless you all today!

If you have any questions I will be more than happy to answer to the best of my ability.